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July 27th, 2006
03:31 am

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hello self
so im off to pack my things for ft bragg. i leave again friday. a year away and 3 weeks back home. it just doesnt seem like much. it was really nice to see the family again and all of my friends. but as usual i messed things up and lost someone very dear to my heart. i lost my bestfriend of 9 years. and come to think of the million other great decisions ive made lately i lost my other bestfriend back in january. what am i doing with my life? where am i going? i just wish i knew why i do the things i do, or atleast have some way to over come the pain i cause others. the pain i have eventually goes away, or maybe i just make it dissapear. im not even sure which it is anymore. i wish that i could post this and somehow someone would reply and help me through this hard time. but when i sit back and look, there is no one there anymore. i have pushed them all away. yeah certain people will always be there and im greatful for them. but then i look in the mirror and realize that im keeping something from them. in a way im lying to them and they dont have any clue. i hate myself for that but some things are better kept secret. i dont know how or when i will be able to tell them, but one day maybe i will change who i am and actually make friends that i can keep and earn trust that i wont break. that is the person i want to be...

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August 23rd, 2005
01:29 am

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when its time to party, we will always party hard
so im sitting here in korea. ha got out of the pt test for now. i swear i can talk my way out of anything if i put my mind to it. anyways, not too bad i guess. atleast right now. ive started going out and playing pool. damn im learning soo much and getting good. ive also been learning phillipino. a really amazing language. they speak soo damn fast and god i only know like 5 words haha. me and lake sit there clueless. haha anyways, i guess thats my life here. oh the food is great. slaw dogs are the best. hotdog, bbq sauce, ketchup, mustard, mayo, onions, beans, and coleslaw. sounds horrible, but the taste is omg amazing. well im off. i love you chrissy and i miss you lots!!!! mahal na mahal kita. i love you very much! hahah yay

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August 17th, 2005
07:52 am

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hmmm......
life is weird at the moment. everything is going okay i guess, but who really knows right? i feel like i have a huge piece of me missing. i love her to death and it drives me crazy that ill be away from her for soooo long. i miss her smile, holding her hand, and a million other little things she did that made me smile the biggest smiles......:(

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August 14th, 2005
03:01 pm

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im soo happy.....
so today chrissy got her surprise!! YYAAAY im sooo happy! i got her the one that she really wanted. it was the last one and omg im soo happy she got it. i LOVE making her happy. shes my entire world and ah im soo in love with her. well i gotta get back to talking to my babygirl!!!


i love you chrissy!!!!!!! everything is perfect....

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August 10th, 2005
07:16 am

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my life is amazing....
i love you sweetheart!!!!

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August 7th, 2005
09:06 pm

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shes amazing....
so today was interesting....well im just glad that chrissy and i worked everything out. it was nice. we talked stuff out and now were okay again!! god i love that girl. shes my life. wow i love her. haha all i can say is that i love you chrissy and im soo happy that youre my girl. im in love with you babygirl!!! and i cant wait until you get your surprise. haha yay. bye babygirl i love you!!!!!!!!!

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August 5th, 2005
04:22 pm

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shes my entire life....
i love you chrissy. youve always been there for me and i owe you my life. we are coming up on 2 years, and thats a huge thing to me. god im soo in love with you. i love knowing that my best friend is also my girl. and i also love telling people that youre MY girl and noone elses. people here consider me married ahhaah. when people ask if i have a girlfriend or anything, my roommate always says that i am basically married and that im whipped by my gf. i love the fact that i dont even talk to them, and they can tell im whipped over you. haha anyways, im soo in love with you sweetheart. thank you for being soo perfect and for always being there for me.


im sooo in love...

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July 27th, 2005
09:25 am

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where do i go from here?
i dont know what to do right now. today was a good day until now. i was calm for the first time in forever, and it was great. easy day at work for once and everything. then i checked my emails and now im right back to being severly depressed. what happened? im talking to crystal and shes helping soo much. but im still down as hell. the only thing i can ask myself is why?? thats it.... just plain old why? anyways, ive decided that when its my time to go, i just wanna die in her arms....

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July 22nd, 2005
09:24 am

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hey you...
babygirl...i dunno when it is, but have fun at your backstreet boys concert k??? i know you were looking forward to that. so have a wonderful time..and then write me and tell me all about it!!! i love you dear! i should have internet next week, and a phone in my room like 2 weeks. YAY! i love you sooo much. never forget that okay??????? bye baby...


god im soo glad youre my girl!!!! i love you soo much!

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09:22 am

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youre the best.....
hey omg so i talked to her lastnite!!! its all okay!!! i love her soo much. i snuck into a building to use the phone and we talked for a few. god i love her. im sooo happy im not losing the best thing in my life. wow i dunno what to say. well im off to find a phone to call my baby!!!!


i love you chrissy!!!!! youre the best girlfriend EVER!!!!!!!!!!

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